Dear Deborah, I'm sorry you have to be on this site.But,I'm glad you found it.I hope we can give you some comfort here.My fiance,Steve died on October 21st after a 6 month battle with brain cancer.His death has been devastating...I've been walking around in a fog for two months,wondering how I'm going to live the rest of my life without him here.There has been times when life just didn't seem worth living...the pain can be too much to handle.I try to think of all the good times we had together.The laughter.Memories of Steve keep me going.People here have been great too.WaltC gave me links some good websites..one of them was www.centerforloss.com. I ordered a book from them,it's titled Healing Your Grieving Heart,by Alan Wolfelt.I found it very helpful.There's nothing people can say to make you feel better...a huge part of you life is gone.We just have to learn to help ourselves get through the pain.I hope this site helps you.Just remember we are all here to help each other through....if you every feel you need an ear,please post a message. Take Care, Deb