marigrace

Mary Lou - Thank you for your response. It is what I needed to hear. My ex had been in a coma and almost died a few years ago, and that is when my grandson and I started praying for Re's soul. I felt at the time that God brought him out of his coma to give him more time to make it right and for our grandson to know him better. I'll just have to pray and have faith that we will see him again one day in Heaven. God bless you! Marigrace.

Kathy, I'm beginning to know how you feel. My ex-husband of 29 years died last Saturday. We knew each other 35 years and were divorced the last six years. When my sister called to tell my ex-husband's sister he passed away, she said "Well, I don't care if you throw him in the river!" and when I talked to her she said none of his family would be there. Most of his cousins did show up, but she didn't. I feel like a yo-yo!! Crying one minute and angry the next. Everything I look at reminds me of him. He was always buying me little things and they are everywhere. I hadn't seen him in about four months, but I went to see him on Saturday evening when my 10 y/o grandson asked me to take him to see his "Re". We are guessing that Re passed away about half an hour to an hour after we left of a heart attack. Re had originally asked us to come on Sunday after I got out of church, but I told him Saturday was best. I don't even know why I thought that Saturday was best other than God knew Re wouldn't be here on Sunday and sent me there! We had stopped saying the words, but I feel sure he still loved me. I know I still loved him, but we were beyond mending fences enough to be more than friends. Tomorrow I have to go to his house and move out all the furniture and his clothes because our daughter can't or won't do it. They didn't have the closest father/daughter relationship, but I think she is feeling bad that she didn't ask him to her wedding in June. I hope and pray this gets easier for both of us. Right now I can't get past knowing I'll never see him again, and that I can't call him on the phone when I'm hurting because it is him I'm hurting about and he isn't here!! God bless. Marigrace

I'm new. My ex-husband of 29 years died suddenly last Saturday and his memorial service was yesterday evening. I knew him for 35 years and we were divorced the last six years. We didn't divorce because we didn't care about each other or love each other but rather because he became addicted to his prescription medication Oxycontin. It destroyed our marriage and almost every relationship he had including the one with our daughter. He had gotten off the pain medication a little while back and we had forged our way back to being good friends again. He loved our 10 y/o grandson very much, and my ex had been wanting to see his grandson for a couple of months, so he asked if we could come out for dinner after church on Sunday. I told him that Saturday would be better, and we went out and stayed a few hours and talked and had a nice time. He told me about some shirts he had ordered for himself and our grandson with their names on them and that he would call me later in the week so we could arrange for them to get their pictures made in them. I got a call shortly after church on Sunday from a police officer saying that he was at my ex's house where his friend found him dead in front of his television set. It looks like he died of a heart attack. His left fist was clenched (he was left-handed), and his right hand was under him like he was trying to get back up. Neither of us remarried or even dated anyone else. I never loved anyone else. I was able to arrange the memorial service and see that he was in one of the plots we bought before we divorced. I even got up and did a eulogy that I wrote which I never thought I would get thru but did thanks to prayers answered. I'm having a hard time with the fact that I will never get to see him again. I would have given him a hug and told him I cared about what happened to him if I hadn't thought I would see him later in the week! I'm hurting so badly, but I'm angry that he left at the same time. I would have talked to him to ensure he was on his way to Heaven. He had suffered from diabetic neuropathy and spinal stenosis and several other things for some time, and he knew his health was bad. He was 58. The hardest thing for me right now is wondering if he called out to the Lord and made things right. He was saved & baptized at age 12, but he had drifted away long ago. Whenever my grandson spent the weekend with me, we always prayed that his Re would not go out into eternity without being right with God. Would God leave a prayer from a child unanswered?!! I need some sort of hope that I'll see him in Heaven one day, and I don't know that!! How do I get past this?