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Luma

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  1. Hi Tracy, I was not hurt at all by your opinion on breeding. I understand you feel very strong about resucing animals and I respect that. Growing up, both my cat and dog were resuced. My dad brought the cat home from his company, he was a stray that always hung around his job. and all the workers tended to him. When they closed the company, my dad brought him home. He lived for 15 years. My dog was adopted from north shore animal league at 8 weeks. She was a puppy. Thank god she is still with us after 13 years. So i understand why you have those views and opinions on breeders and pet stores. Everynight before I go to sleep I kiss her picture and say goodnight and how much we miss her, and when I wake up I do the same. It's silly but it makes me feel better. Tonight I will be lighting a candle in her memory at 10pm for the Monday candle ceremony. Thank You again for all your support and encouraging words. Luma
  2. Hello, Thank You for you well wishes on my loss and sharing your experience with me. I have to say this has been one of the toughest things I have gone through. I am doing alot better than I was last week. I guess I got some closure when I brought her ashes home. They are up on a shelf with her collar and picture. I'm also getting all her pictures together to make a collage and hang it up. I am going to get a new companion for my other cat Chino in about a month. His mother had kittens 4 weeks ago. He's just soo lonely and I think he needs a companion, and what better then having his sister to bully around and grow up with. These discussion groups and the chats really help alot. Just talking with people who have been through it and know how I'm feeling is really the best support. The days are getting a little easier. I still miss her like crazy though. I just keep remembering her and all the adorable little things she use to do. Those memories help me get through the days. Luma
  3. Maylissa, I do feel some peace having her here with us. I have her collar and her picture by her ashes. I am going to look into purchasing an urn for her with in the coming weeks. I am going to light a candle in her name on Monday for the Monday Candle Ceremony. I may also get some flowers to put by her. I know it's silly. Chino has been doing better today. I have him a new toy so he has been entertaining with that. He is being strong. He just hates to be alone. The vet said he is very healthy. That is my baby boy. He is the king in this house. I always talk to him about Sookie and tell him that she was very sick and tjat she is watching over us and making sure he is ok. I show him her picture too. It's nice to know that there are people out there concerned and able to take the time out to help people like me who are taking pet loss so hard and feels like nobody close to them understands what I'm going through. I really appreciate that. Sincerely, Luma
  4. Hello all, Today I picked up Sookie's ashes at the cemetary. It was soo heart wrenching but at the same time it makes me feel a little better that I have her here with me. The days are getting a little better. I still have that feeling of guilt at times. I have been thinking all day about her and the adorable little things she use to do. They made me laugh so much. Chino is ok. You can tell he is sad and lonely. We took him for a check up today at the vet and when we came home it looked like he was looking for her, or knew that I brought her ashes home. He is being really strong though. Hope everyone is well. Sincerly Luma
  5. All though that was a response i did not want to read. I understand and respect your opinions. Thank You Luma
  6. Tracy, Thank you so much for your advice on getting the new kitty. Also, I am going to look into getting one of those books you mentioned in your previous reply. I think they will help me understand the meaning of death and what happens after death. I will keep you both in my prayers. We do have something in common and that is what brings us together. Maybe we were meant to be there for eachother in this time of need. Love Luma
  7. Hello Maylissa and Tracy, You responses have been so heartfelt and encouraging. Reading what you have written is exactly what I need. People who understand my what I'm going through. Today makes on week that my beloved Sookie has been gone. I can remember just last week when she was still alive. I look at the pictures of her beautiful face remember all the adorable little things that she use to do. I know she is in the Rainbow Bridge playing with my childhood cat and rabbit and is watching over me and chino. but I can't help but wish that she was still her with me running around my house and playing with chino. I know what I'm feeling is natural, but at the same time it's something I have never felt before. I never really experienced death of someone who means soo much to me before. I have always questioned the meaning of life and death and what is the purpose of it. Yes we all live and then die, but why? Why do deaths come so early, why do they happen to people or animals who are so young and good and who we care soo much about. I guess that is one of the many questions that I need to find the answer to. God does have a plan for all of us and sometimes our time comes sooner rather than later. Today is a little better then yesterday. Reading your replies has really helped me in many ways. I know I will never forget my little girl or stop grieving over her death. I just need to deal with the grief and learn how to deal with it. This week I found out that Chino's mother just had kittens three weeks ago. They will not be ready for another month. My fiance and I are considering to get a new companion for Chino. I know she will not be Sookie, and I will not treat her like she is or compare her to Sookie. It just kills me to see my Chino so alone. He is alone during the day and does not play as much. What do you guys think I should do? Very truly yours Luma
  8. On November 11, 2005 I lost my siamese cat Sookie. She was a little over a year. She was one out of the two cats that I own. My other cat is named Chino. He is also a siamese cat. They came from different litters but grew up together. They became the best of friends. They slept together, played together, where there was one there was the other. She was also the one who always followed me everywhere and would want to get pet all the time. She had her own little personality. A few days prior to her death she started having diarrhea. I thought it might have been something she ate or a bug. After two days I saw that she wasn't getting any better, and wasn't herself. I took her to the vet that Thursday night. They told me she was very dehydrated and weak, so they gave her IV and antibiotics and took some blood from her. The vet told me if she didn't look a little better in 24hrs to bring her back. Overnight she in fact got worse. She was breathing funny and very weak. I took her the next morning to the vet and they told me that by looking at the result of her blood work she might have kidney problems or diabetes and that I should take her to the Animal Medical Center in manhattan right away. I took her straight there. When I got there, they took her in right away to get some fluids in her and stablize her since she was soo dehydrated. 30 mins had past and the vet came out and told me that she went into cardiac arrest and they haven't been able to revive her and if I wanted to them to continue trying. I told them that what were her chances of living and they said very slim. So I told them to stop. The doctor explained to me that the cause of her death might have been kidney failure or congenial heart disease. She had alot of fluid in her system. I did see her after her death to say goodbye. I also had her cremated. Her loss has been so hard for me. I can't stop crying and being sad. I am feeling so many emotions. I feel sadness, anger, guilt. I keep on blaming myself for her death. I feel like there is something I could have done. Maybe I should have taken her to the vet sooner. I am constantly crying. Thinking about her. I feel like I could have done more for her and didn't. What hurts even more is that she was only a baby. She didn't have a long life. I think it wouldn't hurt so much if she had a long fulfilled but she didn't. She just began her life. I also keep worrying about my other cat. He is lonely now. He meows when me or my fiance get home. He is not playing as much. We play with him everyday and give him attention. I don't know what I should do. Should I get him a companion since he's still young and use to having a little friend around? If so when will be the right time to get him a friend. I hate leaving him at home in the mornings. It kills me to leave him alone and gets me even more sad. I don't know what to do. It just hurts soo much. [attachmentid=13]
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