I am really sorry about your loss. I know everybody says it gets easier but it takes time. And it takes more time for some. I have learned that grief changes your whole life. Just know that its ok to have all the feelings you are going through. I am finally getting to the point where I dont have the crying fits. Grief is a strage thing. Try to take care of you. Know that your not alone and that angels do walk beside you MWAH !