liberty

When do you regain your interest in "anything" I just feel like someone has taken the wind right out of my sails.

this is my sister in laws blog. She started it when my brother had his stroke. I feel so bad that I was not there for him but I was too busy taking my dad back and forth the the doctors and my mom back and forth to the hospital to see my dad. My sister in law is a very good writer. http://comesatyoufast.blogspot.com/

I miss my family This is my sister and me in my dads shorts that she was sewing. Both of them are gone now

AnnieO, Thank you for your response. I have been out of it for about a week. Today I went outside and did some yard work. I just keep having these flash backs of my dad when he was good. I luv him and I miss him.

I used to think when people had a parent that died and they were really old that they were so lucky to have them so long and that it shouldnt hurt so bad. I was really wrong. I am so sorry for your loss. It doesnt matter how long you have them, when they are gone you are lost. Big hugs and hugs and hugs

Today is one week since the funeral. today was the first time I went out and did some yard work. It felt good to be back at it. I miss my dad but I know that he is not hurting anymore. And my brother should be coming home from the hospital next month. I just dont know how our lives will ever be the same. I guess its just life. People come in and leave this life everyday. I am just really glad that my dad felt the love from all of us. My favorite memory of dad and me will be of us watering our gardens together. We had our gardens on either side of a fence. I would ask him if we had a date or not. We would sit there and water our plants and talk about everything. My mom is holding up pretty well. We got hospice to come and pick up the bed and stuff and my mom is working on putting his room back together. She has my sisters bed spread and was worried about putting it on dads bed in case the girls see it. I told her it would bring them comfort when they come to stay the night. Ok I have rambled on enough. Thanks for listening

please help me get thru this. I feel like i have been hit by a truck.

I can see how many people are reading this post. Plese feel free to post your comments. I need response. I need input. I am lost I need people to tell me how to get thru this . I loved my dad so much. It still has not sunk in. Please help me get thru this

I want my sister here so bad. I am the youngest. She was the one to take care of everything. I miss her so much. My mother stood up at the funeral today and said she lost her best friend. I am so sad for her and for all of us. I just want to hug my sister so bad. We just bought a new old house (1920's) sister never got to see it. My dad did. He said we deserved it. . Its very small and nothing fancy. It was just us. Its so charming. It has a half an acre and a garden shed/green house. I am so glad my dad got to see it. I luv him so much. Wish there was a hart pain be gone pill

Leeann I just got back from my fathers funeral. I cant write much because my head is spinning. I went to the hospital to see him and all he wanted to do is come home. So I told the nurse to call the doctor and get him released. Told them we wanted hospice. they took care of everything. He died two days after he came home. I am broken

I had posted earlier here that my sister passed away in April and my brother is still in recovery from a massive stroke. Well I just got home from my dads funeral. My sister was only 48 and my brother is 53. My father was an Opa which is german for grandpa. My dad has been in and out of the hospital over the years with COPD. Which after seeing him is a really bad. His poor body just kept filling up with fluid. Everywhere. He had so much trouble breathing. I am still not over my sisters death and with taking care of my dad I havent had any time to go see my brother. My father was a vetran and I managed to get the color guard out to his funeral today. I was so happy when they told me they could make it I just starting crying on the phone. They folded the flag and handed it to my mother. I just feel like I am dreaming. Like I will wake up tomorrow and I will have my family back. My dad was such a mountain of a man. He had such a big hart. There are so many people in my family that are not even related but still call him opa. That was the kind of man he was. Everybody wanted him to be there dad. Ok I just wanted the world to know that they suffered a great loss when my opa left. I love you baby please give sister a big hug for me. MWAH! HART YOU

Thank you so much Leeann I really needed that today. My sister inlaw is telling me in so many words that we are giving up on my fater! My poor dad is so tired and so sick. He just wants to go home. He is 75 and cas COPD along with a long list of other things. A social worker came in today and mentioned hospice. It really hit us hard because we were really looking for him to get better. I know she is having a hard time dealing with my brothers stroke, but I dont think she has a right to but into the care that my mother and I decide is best for my dad. I dread the walk from the car to the hospital. I JUST DREAD IT. He never wants us to leave and he gives us grief because we were not there sooner. My mother is also 75 and this is really taking a toll on her. She cant drive so I am her taxi back and forth to the hospital. I am so tired, i just want my family back.

Baby please know that you are not alone. I hate when people tell me "well I lost my sister 10 years ago so I know how you feel". Well SORRY this is my grief not yours. YOU dont know how I feel. I go into walmart and people are laughing and I want to tell them STOP dont you know my sister died and my dad is in ICU????? And that my brother is in a different hospital trying to learn how to eat again??? at 53 with a major stroke???? What I can tell you is that you have to talk about it. And you have to try to get some rest. I am having big time trouble sleeping. Keep writing on this site. Its really good to get it out. I even feel alittle better writing to you :-) Geez I dont know if I helped you or me Hang in there and get some rest kat

Thank you for your kind workds. We found a beautiful web site where you can post pictures and light candles for your loved ones. This is the web site we did for my sister http://cindy-cassel.memory-of.com/about.aspx If you like you can go and look at my sisters beautiful three girls and her grandbaby. I find it hard these days to go because I cry. My sister had twin girls that graduated from highschool two months after she passed. Her oldest daughter graduated from college a month after she passed. My brother started a family late in life and there is a picture of him and his beautiful baby girl anna on my sisters web site. I got a phone call from the hospital yesterday afternoon and they have to put a tube in my dads lung because they found blood during his cat scan. My mother can not drive so I take her back and forth to the hospital. I just want him to come home so I can see him sitting in him big man chair watching football. I miss my family

forgive me but this is my first post. I have been searching for a site where I could vent, cry and share. My sister passed away in april of this year at 48 of a hart attack. My brother of 53 had a major stroke a month ago and is still in the hospital. My father is in ICU as I write this post. I am really tired. I feel so alone. My mother is the strongest person I have ever met. I AM SO TIRED