dear struggling,i too lost my mom in a very similar fashion.she had ovarian cancer and it was so brutal to witness.some days i just have to let myself be the walking wound that i am. i cry,i write in my journal,i paint but most importantly i have decided that in order to be ok i must feel my pain...not that i enjoy it one bit!!!!!!!!!!!!!no one can begin to understand what we have had to endure.some days i feel like i am crazy!!! but then i come back to myself and see ok i am going to be alright.pain and all feelings are energy that is talking to and through us,seeking some release.be well,i hope it helps to know you are not alone!sincerely,karen
