Hello I am new here, September 15, 2008, the day my life as I knew it ended. My husband Ray usualy made it home around 3:30, as it was getting later and later, I was getting worried. Then I heard a vehicle in the driveway, when I seen that it was the Highway Patrol, I knew... Tomorrow is our 22nd anniversary, I just don't know how to live without him. Where do I go from here? What do I do? The simplest tasks are difficult. I can't think straight, people will talk to me and I find my mind drifting off and I didn't hear a word they said. I know all of you have lost a loved one, I am hoping that your experiences will help me cope. People will say things like...I can't even imagin....well, they don't want too. No one should, we where supposed to grow old together. This is not fair.... thanks for listening, Barb