Hi Wendy. I am so sorry for your loss. I don't think there is anyone who feels the pain of a loss of a child like a mother does. Men are trained to be tough and hide their feelings. I think it is important that you talk, even if you tell your story a million times. It's how many women deal with their problems. It works. I hope this website helps you. I am here to also look for some support. I witnessed a death of a child last week. I can't stop thinking of that little girl. I lash out just like you do. I got in two arguments (one where I wanted to fight). I have so much anger and then moments later I can't stop crying. It seems like the people that are closest to me don't want to talk. They think it's not normal for me to be so upset and want me to forget and move on. I can't. I worry about my kids and when I see my little girl smile it brings tears to my eyes. I think we have to live life to the fullest, tell everyone we love that we love them, that way we have no regrets. I know God has a plan for your son and that little girl. I like to think that we are part of that plan. Even though I can't figure it out right now, I know there is an answer.
