Dear Tina, I understand how you feel! I just lost my dear sweet pomeranian, Sweetie, who was also my baby, and the first dog I've had pass away as an adult. But what really hurts is how she died...in my fountain in the back yard. I lost her Wednesday, January 4, 2006. My next door neighbors were quick to come over and help & console me. I've got a hole in my heart the size of Texas right now. Like you, I have other dogs, too. That helps a little, but they don't take the place of the pet you've lost. The amount of time we have with our pets is NEVER long enough. My precious pommie was abused stray found wondering the streets around Ft. Collins, CO by animal control.