I know exactly how you're feeling. My mother died almost three months ago...she had a very similar situation. She had breast cancer, went through chemo, radiation, and a double mastectomy. After that it came back, metastasized to her liver, bones, lymphnodes, spleen, and lungs. I think I would really enjoy talking to you. It might do us both some good. If you want to you can email me at Strummer.girl@gmail.com