My 31 year old husband passed away Oct 22 of an acute heart attack. I woke in the middle of the night to what i thought was him snoring, he was gurgling and not responsive. I called 911 and had to give him mouth to mouth. They said at the hospital that he never had a heart beat even at the house. the ME said he had significant heart disease and that his arteries were that of a 60-70 year old. We were together for 8 years, married for 4. It is all just sinking in now. The past 3 days have been miserable. Crying and just so depressed. Compounding issues, i've been sick for a week now. Just got put on antibiotics. My parents and sister live about 230 miles away. I've been going back and forth. I'm currently at my house with my 2 dogs. I cant believe how much I have to do. I wish there was a central place I could notify and they could take care of notifying everyone that needs to be notified. It is so time consuming and confusing. I feel like I keep getting the run around. Things that should be simple, like removing his name from the car title so I can sell it is taking so much time. Because there's still a loan I have to get an official letter from the lien holder before I can go to the DMV. I never imagined I'd be doing all this at 29 years old. I get upset when people try to tell me they know exactly how I feel. This one woman, a family friend, implied that, and while yes, she lost her husband, he had pancreatic cancer so they had time to plan and determine what his wants were. I had to make the decisions on burial, etc. This was not something we ever discussed. 2 of his brothers live close by and are trying to help out with as much as they can. it's the little things now, like the light bulb at the top of the stairs that's out. i'm a clutz and dont like to get on a ladder...this was his job. carrying the laundry baskets to the basement, taking the trash out. i'm just really sad and depressed right now. I'm planning on going back to work after Thanksgiving. it will be hard, but i think getting in a routine again will be good. my work has been very understanding. i know when i have my moments or days they will understand. i just miss him so much.