IT IS SO CONFUSING...........BUT WE WILL ALWAYS BE THE DAUGHTER OF OUR FATHER I am so new to grieving. I lost my father the end of October very suddenly. He left that morning as usual and mid way through his routine passed and we never saw him alive again. I want to respond to the presense of the spirit. I felt my father's presense so strong immediately following his passing and have not felt it lately (3months later). I miss that and have gone into a different mode. Seems while he was 'with me' I was better able to handle things. What I am unable to adjust to is the "numbness" I feel. Life seems surreal and I feel numb to most of the world. I am functioning on a day to day basis, but not without this numbness. Anyway, I think my dad was with me early on to assure me that I would be okay. I think his presense will return in time, at different times, if I leave myself open to him. My thought is that once a person passes there is a fury of activity for them in their new world an as they adjust and learn, they find it easier to come back with us. It is all crazy and I think I will be very grateful to have found this site. My mother's health is an issue as well and my sister and I, though we are close, have to deal with our own emotions concerning both Mom and Daddy. It might be that I was doing better earlier on because the holidays were approaching and I concentrated on getting through to the first of the year. My family was going to be together with some normalcy during holidays regardless of the void left by my dad, their granddad, and greatgranddad. My thought was that it would NEVER be the same, but we had to go on. Now my mission has passed and I am facing the realness of the numbness. I strongly believe that my dad is in a better place and that I will be with him again. Because of my strong faith, I have been suprised by my sometime unsteadyness. I haven't meant to ramble. I am truly sorry for everyones loss and hope that we all can help each other over the humps as they present themselves. I have found that pictures have helped me.
