Hi all- my name is Julie and this is my first post here but I have a feeling I'll become pretty frquent when my father dies. He's terminally il with cancer - bone, lung, spine, renal cell....he's doing various experimental drugs right now with chemo, diagnosed for a 3rd time about 18mths ago, 69yo. We know this is the twilight time and that he won't escape the cancer this time - it's just a matter of when. He's frail, extremely thin, bad side effects of the drugs, lost his spark and great sense of humor. I know I'll feel my own loss - that's a given. But I also feel I'm mentally prepared for his loss as I hate the poor quality of life he's leading. He lives out of state, so I don't get many opportunities to see him. Anyway, my real concern is more for my mother. Married 40 yrs, they're extremely co-dependent on one another. She's mentioned suicide after he dies and that she doesn't want to go on living without him, etc. She's borderline alcoholic and think his passing will certainly push her over the edge as she uses it to self=medicate her internal pain and suffering over his demise. I'm not sure how to best handle this angle....any book recommendations that *I* can read to better help me help her? Everything I see seems to be for HER to read about grieving her husband or for me to read about losing a parent. I feel like I'm going to need to become a therapist to help her cope with his loss. I don't know if I'm even allowed to post here until he passes away....If not, please feel free to pull my post - just want to get my mind around this so that when he does leave us, I can allow my heart to grieve while being prepared in what things to say and do for my mother to help her. He really is a great man - a very loving father and feel very lucky to have been raised in such a loving family. Thanks- Julie