Thank you both for replying, it is comforting to know I'm not alone. My mother was only 58 and had such a difficult life. She really deserved so much better. This is one of the times I wish I was a person of faith, it might ease some of the pain. Deb, that is very sweet of you and your family to deliver flowers to your mother. I also think of my mother often. She influenced me in so many ways that it is hard not to think about her. Kate, time heals all wounds. Typically when I feel really down I spend more time with my children. Their vibrance and good nature usually picks me up.