I'm so sorry for your loss. I know its got to be very hard to lose a parent. Thankfully I'm lucky enough to still have both of mine, knock on wood. I did, however, lose the love of my life. Im 19 years old and I know I will never find a love like the one I had. My Romeo is gone and all I have left to do is hope I will some day see him again. The only thing that stopped me from jumping in the grave with him is the thought of what happens after we die. He was murdered so, if there is a heaven and hell, he could be in heaven. If I had gone after him and committed suicide I would go to hell for sure. Its been just over a year and i still cry just about every night. I hope for both of your sakes, and many other peoples, that we will some day all be with ones we love and lost.