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tinkerbell 31

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  1. I feel for you so much!! It is so hard to explain those feelings you have inside. I am going through the same sort of pain. I lost a good friend in a car accident 3 1/2 weeks ago. I feel like I will never be the same. I only knew him for five months and he has made such an impact on my life. The nicest guy ever!! I feel like some people probably think I should be over grieving already. I keep trying to picture how the accident might have happened and the condition he was in after. That mightt seem immortal, but my mind just keeps wandering. He was a coworker of mine, and we were in a more than friend relationship, he was 10 years older than I and I never thought I could fall for someone like him. When he got in the accident he was on his way to see me. He got let go from his job, (which he had the feeling it might happen) and went and had a few drinks and was on to his way to see me. The road wasn't all too familiar with him, and not to mention it was dark and the roads were very icy. He missed a curve and went off the road and rolled his SUV. He was ejected from the vehicle and had major internal injuries. Only made it about 6 1/2 hours. I've been to his accident site twice and prayed and picked up a few things left behind. I've also met his family, which did help. I can't stop thinking about the "what if's." You know, had he not stopped for drinks or had he met me earlier and most of all if he wasn't let go from his position this wouldn't have happened. He was extremely devastated that he wouldn't be working with anymore. My job is not the same anymore!! I feel this huge emptiness when I would inside the building. I feel like it's hard to listen to music, since so many songs remind me of him. I used to talk to him on 45 minute ride to work and on the way home. And now I have way too much time to think. I just don't know how accept his loss. Sometimes I feel like not doing anything:(
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