This is my first post, as I just joined the site. It seems to be very helpful for people, and i've gotten good information from it. I'm 33 and married, one step-daughter who we see every other weekend. My mom will be gone one year on 06/20. My dad passed away a year and a half prior. I have 5 sisters and 2 brothers, but all are quite a bit older than me (i was the surprise kid at the end) and they are more like uncles and aunts to me. In addition to that, they have all been bickering and having stupid petty fights since mom died. I really dont want to talk to them or deal with them at all. Two of my sisters who I kind of spend time with are moving away soon. My parents were older when they had me, so i really feel cheated that I didnt get enough time with them. I guess im feeling very alone. My husband does not understand what I am going through at all. My parents were the age of his grandparents. He also just has a hard time relating to other people. I feel like my friends are tired of me moping around and they dont even ask how im doing anymore. Im super sad and very down. like i named the post, im tired and im sad, and tired of being sad. When it was a year after Dad died, the first anniversary hit me like a ton of bricks. Im very scared that will happen with mom's and I have been missing her SO MUCH now that its spring and she's missing the plants and flowers coming up. and i am just missing her so bad and it hurts. I dont really know where to turn, nothing seems to make me feel better.......
