Laurena

Hello Alicia, I am very sorry for your loss....I am sure you have heard this a lot. But, coming from a big pet lover, I understand totally. My cat died about two weeks ago, well he was hit by a car I assume (I have posts in the cat greivance forum)....which is still VERY hard for me because he was my companion. I had him for almost two years... You will recover fully I would say really, but it shouldn't be looked at as a bad thing. He was a part of you and your family, its normal to be upset and sad I think. I'm not sure if you have other pets, but if not maybe you should get another puppy....not to replace Adolf of course but to bring in the animal love that it seems you want in for you and your household.

Hello Kevin, I know EXACTLY how you are feeling. I found my cat, Fozzi dead in my alley last Saturday, and it's hitting me hard. I have guilt, it is a week today since I have seen him. I went to go for a walk last Thursday night and he snuck out between my legs. I started letting him go out for a few hours for about 2 weeks because I got tired of chasing him all over becasue he always wanted to get out, I told him he better be back when I got back from my walk. Well, he wasn't. I figured he was next door because there are other cats over there and lots of trees so I watched a movie. He still wasn't back by the time my movie was over. I called him again, nothing. I had a feeling something was wrong when he wasn't back by morning. I called and called him, went through the alley. Nothing. I went to to work, came home after work before class. Nothing. After class. Still nothing. Saturday morning I went to go get something to eat and thats when I found him in my alley, dead. I freaked out. My friend bartends Saturdays and I called her and this nice regular came and got him and burried him in his backyard. I couldnt bear to look at him, but he said it looked like he got hit. I keep thinking how my little buddy probably suffered and I was sleeping praying for his return. My friends dont really understand my grief. Ther are cat lovers, but theirs havent died yet. Mine was ripped away from me after only 2 years. I live alone and its hard when I come home now and he isnt there to great me. I still block the doorway as if hes going to try and run out...I look at all the spots he used to lay in. I wake up thinking hes going to be at the end of my bed so I can rub my feet on him.... I do want to get another cat. Actually two. But I am terrified that they are going to want to go outside. I dont want my new kitty to even think about trying to get outside. Its sucks really bad. I had my other cat, Kobe, for 6 years and he ran away and I never saw him again. That was about 5 years ago. Sorry I have been rambling. I am glad I found this site and I hope you are doing better. I am at work so I should stop because I feel that I am about to cry again. Please take care.... Laurena