Spring2009

My boyfriend died suddenly three weeks ago at the age of 41 of a heart attack. I've never experienced such pain in m life as in the past three weeks. The first week or so, I think I was in shock. Now, it's just plain sadness. Yesterday, I felt the dark cloud pass for awhile and I felt better than I have yet. Today, I'm back to complete sadness again. I keep telling myself that it's going to get better, but some days I wonder. I've lost 15 pounds in the last three weeks because my stomach is constantly upset and I have no appetite. I am making myself eat little things throughout the day, because I understand the importance of keeping nutrition in my body. I'm hoping to receive some input about the nausea thing. It starts between 2:00 and 4:00 a.m. every day, as soon as I wake up. I have been taking Ambien to sleep at about 10:00 p.m. When I wake up, my head is spinning with 1000 thoughts and my stomach is upset. I normally try stay in bed as long as I can, trying to go back to sleep. I've tried deep breathing, praying, reciting scriptures in my mind, just to be able to go back to sleep. Sometimes, I'm able to go to sleep for about five minutes, only to wake up again with the nausea. I typically end up getting up about 6:30 or 7:00, after having tossed and turned for 3 hours. Has anyone (everyone) had this experience? Thank you for being here.