momx3

Hi Rachel-I lost my mom a little over a month ago and I can totally relate to what you're saying. My sister summed it up when she told me 'It's like mom went on vacation and will be back soon.' We know its real but yet it doesn't seem or feel real. I've had more bad days then good days since mom passed but don't deny the pain or the tears because I feel it makes it harder on ourselves. Hang in there! Michelle

Hi- Like Carissa I'm new to any discussion board..so bare w/ me here. I'm 38 and recently lost my mom to lung cancer metastisized to her liver. Mom was diagnosed on Nov 19, 2008 and passed away on March 16, 2009. I'd never in my wildest dreams imagine I'd be going through this at such a young age. My mom was only 58 yrs old. She was my best friend and I miss her so much I can't even type this without crying. She fought so hard for my sister and I and we both felt so helpless because we couldn't do anything to help. My sister took a voluntary layoff from work to be able too stay home and care for mom. I have 3 boys so it was harder for me to do the majority of caregiving. I shared EVERYTHING w/ my mom and even now I find myself picking up the phone to call her because I have just have to tell her something...then it hits me like I've ran into a brick wall...complete w/ the breath taken out of me. My sister and I talk all the time and we try to help each other but 1/2 the time we can't even help ourselves let alone help each other LOL! Our dad is young too, he's 58 as well. He's doing ok but is really missing mom. They would have been married 40 yrs in July 09, but have been together since they were 15yr old. I'm the oldest and its so hard trying to keep it all together for everyone...I'm so glad I found this discussion group. Thanks all for letting me share my story. Michelle