eyegirl

My mom died April 2009 and dad died Sept 2009. I still don't "get it". I often wonder how this happened. I was VERY close to my parents, now I have this huge void in my life...I don't get to call them a few times a day or go to visit them. It's still very strange. I had a grief counselor come to talk to me once but realized that it just takes time. I'm not quite sure how much time...but I suppose it will get easier at some point. It seems that it has actually gotten worse...the longer it is, the more that I miss them.

Mary Linda, Thanks for your reply. The one thing that I keep falling back on is that I feel no guilt. I did everything that I could to make my mom's life as good as possible, while she was healthy and sick. Because of that, I have a clear conscience. We had some awful decisions to make and I feel that all of them were the correct decisions based upon the situation that we were given. I KNOW that I will get thru this...as my husband says "time takes time". Michele

My mom passed away on April 17th, 2009. She had been sick for a few years but the last 30 days were quite bad. Actually, the last week was AWFUL. I know that she is FINALLY out of pain, but I miss talking to her. To be frank, she was quite difficult...but she was my mom! I can't believe she's gone... I'm not sure that I completely realize the magnitude of this. When I think of all that we have been through, I sometimes forget that she passed away. I'm not sure that it has even hit me yet...I'm scared for when it does!