I'm brand new to this forum and could really use some help. Our 5 month old puppy was killed by a hit and run driver yesterday and it all happened right in front of me. We had been working with her on not bolting and running away, but she took off across the street. When I called her to come back, there was no traffic, but she hesitated a few minutes, then came charging back (and she was very quick) right as a car came speeding around the corner. I'm still in shock and cannot stop crying. I feel horrible and totally responsible, even though I know in my mind that there wasn't anything I could do, but I just can't seem to accept it. The jerk that hit her never even stopped. She was only alive for about a minute after being hit. My husband came rushing out and tried to cover her with a towel and get her into the car, but it was already too late. It all happened on a weekend, so we had to leave her in an overnight drop box at our local veternary clinic. My god, do I feel horrible about leaving her in such a cold place. I kept having these horrendous visions of her regaining consciousness and me not being there. I know, it wasn't a rational thought, but it was still there and hard to shake. We didn't know what else to do...we didn't want the kids to see her like that. We did contact the hospital this morning and are going to have her cremated, so at least that will help provide us with a little closure. We had only had her a few short months, but she had become such a beloved member of our family. She slept by my feet and went everywhere with us. I can't believe she will never get the chance to grow up. My two boys seem to be handling it OK, our oldest is 7 and told me "it's OK, mom, we can just go to the pound and get another one". Our youngest is 2 1/2 and is too young to grasp what has happened. My husband is also devestated, but seems a little more put together on the outside. He's been such a wonderful support, but I feel like I'm bringing him down with my crippling guilt and grief. Is another dog going to help us or hurt more? I can't seem to wrap my head around that idea either. I haven't been able to go more than an hour or so without crying. I couldn't sleep and I can't eat. Please, any advice or words of wisdom would be greatly appreciated. I would really like to know how I can get the last images of her life out of my head and replace them with more loving memories of how she was before that horrible accident. And, how to get the swelling on my eyes to go down....I look like I just lost a boxing match.