I have just passed the five week anniversary of my husband's death. It has been surreal, a whirlwind of activity, hardly time to think, feeling numb. Just came back home on Friday after taking his ashes to his birthplace in England, hoping to help his mom by having a simple family memorial. Now I'm home, it's July 4th weekend, the house is empty, the sympathy cards are still here. I feel like I'm finally beginning to realize Andy's gone. You're right, it feels unbearable. I'm hoping this site will help me eventually come to terms with his death. Sue