Hi Magdalyn I know exactly how you feel. You're right ,some things you can't undo. My father was diagnosed with cancer and spent his last five months with my brother (800kms) away. I did see him in that time but did not go enough. I was not there for him! I spent the last few days with him when he was unconcious. I should've been there earlier... I only had one hour to speak to him before he went unconcious and now I can't forgive myself for it! It has caused me to be depressed and angry with myself and the worst thing is that it cannot be put right, forever!! What does one do to forgive yourself? I understand where you're coming from, precisely. My dad also was an alcholic but was a dear, gentle soul and now he's gone! Perhaps time will heal, I don't know. Perhaps one must be kinder to other people, older people that need help? Spend time with old people. Regards Collis
