MouseGoddess

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I miss her so much....I was always in her room talking with her. I wore a pedometer one day and I logged two miles just back and forth to her room! Now, I see her door closed and know I have no where to go, no one to jabber with, no one to cook for......oh, sure, my husband and I. We can eat take out, I don't feel like cooking any more. When we went to the hospital and she was in a coma, they told me to talk to her and maybe she would hear my voice and come to a bit. I did, I talked, I called her, and she finally managed to half open her eyes and even with the respirator in her mouth she gave me a half smile! I was so excited! I thought it was a good sign and maybe she would be OK. I knew she saw me and knew I was there. The nurse sent us out to eat while they did a ct scan and drained her lung. But I got a call before that happened saying she had just coded! We got back to the hospital while they were still working on her, but the doctor said it was useless. When we walked out of the hospital I dried my eyes and looked up, and saw in a clear Arizona sky, one lone cloud with sun beams radiating out from around it. I swear, it was God coming for my mother! I know she went into the light and there will never be any contact from the other side. Her business was done here......and I'm alone.

This sounds almost exactly what happened with my mother...lung cancer, strong willed, always wanting to help me, just wanted me to be happy, and lived with my husband and I. But I only had eight months from diagnosis to losing her, and it wasn't to the cancer. She had pneumonia and kept telling the doctor she couldn't breathe and he just said it was COPD and to see a respiratory doctor. Finally she went in and said to just put her in the hospital and run tests and see why she was getting weaker and having more trouble breathing. He said she wasn't sick enough to be in the hospital, without even listening to her lungs or anything. The next day she was too weak to sit up so I called the paramedics. They said they could hear a rill in her lower lung and she also had sepsis. They took her in to the hospital and two hours later she slipped into a coma and the next day I lost her. But she wasn't SICK ENOUGH to go to the hospital! As far as I'm concerned, that doctor (or rather, PA, that's all he was) killed her.