It has been a year and 3 months since my mom left us and I am still suffering. I feel I have no one to turn to as I hate to burden people with my problems. My Mom was a very important part of my life, we talked daily. Lived about 5 mins away. Since 2007 we have had on going major health issues with my parents. I have been a rollercoaster of hell. My Dad had triple by pass, infection, another surgery 6 weeks later and than an ICD within the same year. Then 2 months later my Mom got sick, with panceatic cancer. She died April 2, 2008 at 11:45pm. I was there for all of this. Now I am alone and have to struggle to raise my four girls without my Mom' support and guidance. I feel abandoned and lost. I am so glad to find a forum that is for grief and healing. Thanks for reading Bamboo- my user name is for good luck for my future as Bamboo is to bring good luck.