I understand how you feel in more ways than even I want to imagine. My chihuahua of 2 yrs passed away on August 23,2009. Of what is now thought to be parvo. How does this happen? I miss him more than I ever thought I would. I thought we grow old together and he would watch my children live for college. I feel guilty because he never acted sick until that day, and by the time I got "Little Man" to the dr. it was too late to stop this horrible disease. I was with him in the end and I don't feel that it helps me everyday, because all I see is his last breath.I told him I would be okay that he could go and he looked at me. I bent down for us to share one last kiss and he took his last breath. The pain is unbearable, I feel that a large piece of me died with him that day. I never realized how much we relied on each other, until I was left here... alone. I just feel that he was one of my children, I helped deliver when he was born. And I am angry at the same time because the vet never led me to believe he was serious enough to die. Just that quickly my best friend, companion, and the love of my life is no longer sitting beside me on the couch.
When will the pain stop, when can I be happy again without feeling guilty? Someone help me... please. thank you.
Tatertot2008
