Leswolf

Tom and Dena, Thank you for sharing your loving story about Molly. I lost my beloved Duckers the Tuesday before on 9/22/09. I have felt such grief at times i do not know how I'm supposed to go on without her. I never spent a day without Duckers except when she was in the hospital. This past week I truly felt the aloneness as i have been on vacation for the first time in 14 years without her. We too traveled the country and tried to do everything together including little trips to the store just to run errands. What is most poignant about your story is the fact that you came to a realization that Molly would not wish for you to just grieve her but to truly remember the glorious times you had together on this earth and what you meant to eachother. I try everyday to stay out of the negative and do find myself in tears and feeling alone looking for her. But like the rest of us we need to remember that they brought us love in every moment and wanted nothing more than that for us. I hope that they (Duckers and Molly) have met across the Rainbow Bridge and are sending us all the love in the world to get through this difficult time. Duckers like Molly was a rescue pup...the smallest in the shelter at the time only to grow to be an 80lb mush. I know she would like me to find another to give love and a fresh start to. Not now but at some point... Good luck to you both and know that they are thinking about us wishing us peace as they have found it thanks to us helping them from their suffering.

I'm so sorry for your loss. I just put my darling Dog Duckers to sleep last Tuesday and I am also beside myself with grief ang guilt. Much like your precious Kitty she was struggling with her Kidneys over the last few weeks and it beacme all to clear that I had no other choice but to help relieve her suffering. I too wish to find an animal communicator but do not know where to begin. I know in my heart she is Ok now but I wish there was some way for her to tell me that everything is ok as I promised it would be in her last moments. Over the past week i have visited the Rainbow Bridge room and found some comfort there. You are not alone...remember that they are with us and so are others who understand your pain.

Quink I'm sorry for your loss...hope you are well

Quink thank you so much for your post. I will be adopting in the near future....just giving myself sometime to grieve. I am still beside myself as she was the absolute love of my life. being left behind is the worst.

After several months of illness and surgery including many hospitalizations I had to put my darling Duckers to sleep last night. I am beside myself with grief and guilt. I cannot bear the pain of her not being with me. She was with me for 14 years and it was the best time of my life. Last April she was diagnosed with liver cancer and I was forced to make the difficult decision of treatment by means of a very dangerous surgery or euthanasia. I decided to go for the surgery and thankfully she made it through although it was very close. She began to recover only to get sick with a terrible urinary tract infection. This made her recovery so much harder. We tried every antibiotic to no avail and after months of treatment we chose a rare antibiotic that was our last hope. Unfortunately, after throughout the treatment Duckers health appeared to be declining. She rarely ate and needed to be coaxed to her food. I cooked for her and did everything to make her comfortable and healthy. She just got worse and eventually went into kidney failure. I rushed her in to the vet again and she was hospitalized for three days. With some signs of recovery I was able to take her home. For the next week, however, she ate less and less and got weaker and weaker. I tried everything again to no avail. She finally got so sick and weak that I had no choice but to help her from her suffering. So last night was the night and I am heartbroken and empty. I cannot believe she is gone and I just wish she was here with me but healthy. I hope I did not do anything to prolong her suffering but I can't help but think I did. Not only that but it was so difficult to let her go because she just looked at me as if she didn't want to leave. I hope I made the right decision for her and I pray she is feeling young again and knows that I will be with her again. I can't bear the thought of not seeing her again and I can't bear the pain of her not being with me.