I am in so much pain over the loss of my cat~ Trixie~ I had her for 12/13 yrs and she was 1 to 2 when I adopted her. She was "never" sick than after my other cat die on Jan. 09 after months of home health care with her Trixie got since in like Feb. 09 I lost both of my babies this year and I cannot find a job and life is just a little rough right now. Trixie was such a support to have a round always happy to see me, I could go on and on but you all know what a great cat is like and now I have lost both. I have my two dogs but it is not the same as the kitty cat love.
I was trying to let Trixie die at home but she was getting so thin and the runny poop and urine was starting to be in place not in the little box. At first no big deal potty papers did the trick but than I saw one of her ears start to drop at the tip. She also didn't walk straight but sometimes like she might be drunk. I had her on Sub-Q and several shots and the vet said last blood work the kidneys did not look good beside her pancreatic and IBS issue. I let her go out in the front yard (with me) in the AM and PM but even that she didn't take much time in the end. I saw her stubble and she peeped in the back room and I though I do not want her in pain to just have her with me more. I also did not want to shorten her life by being to quick to put her down I just pry she is not mad at me for putting her down and she was okay with it. No one wants to die and I hate playing God. The vet did it in my cat and she was much more relaxed in the car than the vet room so I am grateful for that. I still think i see/ look for her and it has only been 24 hrs. I do okay than start crying like a baby, my God I miss her so much! There is not a room in the house that doesn't have a spot or two that she would sit in. If I hadn't done it (put her down) she would be with me right now. The guilt is eating me up and the pain of her loss is just so bad.
Maybe an animal communicator might help. Has anyone used one?