Thank you for your compassion. I really don't know which board I should be on as my sister is dead ,my niece is dead ,my mother is gone and my father died today. I have also had many beloved pets die in a two year period. My Mom died two years ago --- she had a stroke and I thought this was the end of my world ,then this Spring my niece and my sister were murdered --- It is difficult at best to talk about that event --- I think I am going to break and never be able to fix myself --- then today my Dad died. As I said, I have also had so many pets die lately that I think I can't go on anymore. I really can't stand much more. Thank you for listening.