can't be fixed

Thank you for your compassion. I really don't know which board I should be on as my sister is dead ,my niece is dead ,my mother is gone and my father died today. I have also had many beloved pets die in a two year period. My Mom died two years ago --- she had a stroke and I thought this was the end of my world ,then this Spring my niece and my sister were murdered --- It is difficult at best to talk about that event --- I think I am going to break and never be able to fix myself --- then today my Dad died. As I said, I have also had so many pets die lately that I think I can't go on anymore. I really can't stand much more. Thank you for listening.

I'm not sure how to start. I needed to talk to people that have been through loss. I can't seem to find any soalce --- I cry all the time and I feel so guilty. My sister was such a loyal, loving mother and friend and wife. She was only 46 on the day her life and that of her daughter , [my niece ] ended. It is also the day my life went with her and my niece. Somedays I just want to give up --- except for the fact there is another to look after I would probably end it all. I can't do that to my remaining niece --- she has been through too much to lose another family member. I am filled with hate and neverending pain --- I really don't know where to turn . I'm sorry for downloading on all of you ---I know you all have losses as great as mine ---- Thank youfor letting me 'speak'. Can't be fixed