jbayse

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss of your dad. I can't even fathom the pain that you are going through. I'm a daddy's girl myself. I only felt a need to tell you, that your daddy knows how much you love him. Even though the doctors said that he wouldn't wake again... he could hear your cries, he knows how much pain your going through. It's up to you now to share the same type of comfort your daddy gave you while growing up and pass that on to your son. By your words and keeping the good memories alive your son will never forget how much his grandpa loves him. I know it's hard, but you must think about the wonderful memories, and keep all those comforting memories alive in your heart and in your mind. Please don't feel guilty, no one ever knows what tomorrow is going to bring. No matter how many things you could've, would've, and should've done, if you had done them all you would still be feeling the way you do now. I know your heart is broken, and you have the feeling of complete emptiness and sorrow. Just know that your dad is still with you. He still lives in you, in your heart and in your memories. You are part of your dad, and your dad lives through your son, and when your son has children he will live through your grandchildren. You see he is still here with you, because he made you, you have him in your blood and so does your son. So you see he might not be here in the form of a man but he is still living because he is in you. I know I might sound strange but I just felt the need to tell you that. I hope you can find some comfort in what I have said to you. I also feel the need to tell you that don't look at this as a goodbye forever, but as a I will see you later in a better place. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. Take care of your mom, she needs you now more then ever..

Thank you for all of your words and wisdom and I will read those books. I appreciate all your kind words. I think that I really needed to hear someone's input and make me look at things through different eyes

I feel my cat has crossed over, but my dog I can still feel her walking beside me. I wish I could turn back time and protected Titterpuss, she didn't deserve to die the way she did. I'm left here with all this guilt, 1 was that I didn't protect my cat, and the 2nd is that I wasn't here to stop my baby girl from doing this. I feel that this is all my fault... my dogs that are still here are just beginning to eat again, but I find myself distancing myself from them, even though I know they had nothing to do with what happened. My house doesn't feel like my home anymore ( if that makes any sense). It's so cold and empty in here now, and I have this reoccurring thought that if I went and dug my dog up that she would come back to me ( crazy I know). I probably sound nuts. When they put my dog down I couldn't bare to go, I gave her hugs, kisses, and told her I loved her before my husband loaded her up on his truck to take her. At 7:07pm in my right ear i heard a dim ringing and had a wave of pure sadness and I knew that my dog had just passed away. I had my mother in law call my husband and find out if Karma was gone and he said that she passed at 7:07pm. I have had family members and friends that have past away and I have never felt this kind of pain in my life before. To know that my bond with my dog was so great that I knew the minute she passed just hurts me that much more. My pets are my babies, though not human I feel such a powerful connection to them like a mother does with her own children (i'm a mother of 2 beautiful son's 2). I guess I just don't know where to go from here, or how to let go.

I'm having a really hard time dealing with the loss of my dear cat Ms. Titterpuss and my loyal dog Karma (aka momma's baby girl). It's been about a week since I have lost them but the memory of what I saw will last, and my heart will be forever broken. I had my dog Karma for 2 years and fought so hard to keep her, due to the misconceptions on how her breed( pittbulls) have been viewed. I also have a male american pittbull terrier and they are the most loving dogs one could ask for. Unfortunately, the wrong people have gotten a hold of these precious animals and turned them into a breed of terror. My dogs will lick you to death before they would even bark at you. My cat Ms. Titterpuss came into our lives back in July 2009 as my birthday present, she was 6 weeks old. My dogs loved her and would sleep with her, and she loved them. Last wednesday I came home from work and walked through my front door and seen all 3 ( we have 1 puppy left out of karma's litter of 10) of my dogs running down my hallway heading towards my den. Of course they had gotten out of their kennels and trashed my home ( as some dogs do) when I started walking in the direction they were running in I looked down my hallway and there laid my cat, she had been killed, and carried to my bedroom and laid next to my bed. My cat died a horrible death and hurt me to the deepest part of my heart. I checked all 3 of my dogs and my male and puppy had no blood, no scratches, no blood in their gums, but my female Karma did. She had scratches all over her face, and blood on her coat. I knew then that my baby girl killed my titterpuss. By the way things were in my house this was no accident and was not the product of rough playing. I had to make the hardest decision of my life, I had to protect other animals and people from anything like this ever happening again. I had Karma put down. I feel so awful, I cant get over this, I keep thinking I made the worse decision that I could've ever make. I miss both of them so much, how can this happen? Where did I go wrong? How can my baby girl that I love with all of my heart kill my cat that I love so much? I can't deal with this. I feel like I can't breath, what could I have done differently to make this outcome better? I can't eat, I can't sleep. I really need someone to talk to. My husband doesn't like talking about it, but even he is having nightmares of what happened. But he doesn't want to talk about it, he wants me to grieve quietly and forget it ever happened. How can I forget when my heart is tore into a million pieces? I need help. If anyone can help me make sense of this all, or even just talk to me. I'm breaking down more and more everyday