Hi guys,
I understand the guilt you feel. I lost my mom 2 years ago, i still feel a lot of guilt as well. She'd had a stroke as well 7 months before her death. She drank heavily afterwards, and i wish i could've stopped her. i refrained from telling on her everytime i found the alcohol, i was only 16 at the time, and thats a big source of guilt. I also wasn't home the night she died, and i thought if only i couldve been home that night, maybe i couldve saved her. However I'm trying not to feel so guilty, but its hard. I understand its hard, but try to ignore the guilt, because its not worth it. Your father knew you loved him, and thats all that matters.