I know how you feel...My dad just passed away.He was a giving man who struggled alot in his life.I thank god that he went suddenly,without a long illness.I'm sorry for the loss of your mom.My dad was my closest parent to me.He took me after my parents divorce.Anyways,I have so much anger some days that I don't know what to do with it.It started with the hospital staff.He passed of a heart attack while doing a side job.I guess he was dead on arrival.The staff was so rude that if I wasn't in such a state of shock I would have punched the chaplin!Next came the funeral home,they were so pushy and rude,I wish I had been in the right state of mind.Nobody should be pushed out of a funeral home 10 min. after the service.I should have stood up to them.Not to mention all my dad's friends and family that didn't bother to show.(yes,the weather was bad,but come on!)He too,deserved so much more then that.Doingmybest is so right about finding the truth in people.Sad to say but my friends and even my mom are not there for me in the slightest.I have one good friend who listens.I'm clinging to my brother for dear life,and I have a Fiance' that is patient with me and is understanding.Other then that I'm thinking everyone else who I thought cared,are not who I thought they were.And to be honest,I don't want those people close anymore.I hope that's normal and I'm not going off the deep end with hatred,I just don't want the fakeness in my life.I could go on and on with the people I'm mad at and why.But tomorrow I will wake up not angry and just cry all day.Hang in there honey!!!At least they have us to keep them alive in our hearts.