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LarrysGirl

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  1. I'm so sorry for the loss of your beloved husband. I hear the pain and see it in your words. No doubt, you are feeling total disbelief. Like you, even though my Larry was sick, we never expected him to die. We thought he would get his transplant and we would finally get to do all the things we dreamed of together. Walking on the beach with our dogs, him getting to see the Dallas Cowboys play, just simple things but when we were together we were happy. I, too, told friends and family, let me go, don't be sad, I will be with him. I still feel that way and I lost him 9 years ago. I miss him every day and when something happens that makes me smile, I immediately think of him, knowing he would be happy too. Right now for you, its one day at a time, a minute at a time. Grieving is a life time process. THIS Site will be a wonderful source of support and comfort. Lots of understanding. If it had not been for the other members on this site and Marty, I would not be here. I didn't want to die but it seemed impossible to stay alive. I am here. It's not easy. I will miss him always and so will you. Deborah
  2. She figured out the peanut butter trick, lol. I still try to get in into her mouth and eventually she swallows it. She's caught on to pretty much everything I've tried cheese, lunch meat, etc. and like Anne said I've put a pill in her food before and its always still sitting there when she's done. The vet said don't let her chase rabbits or anything (no kidding). I just brought her in from using the bathroom and what goes past us????? a black cat, well she leaped and of course now is holding her leg up. Oh for heaven sakes Larry please help me.
  3. Thank you all, No my vet requires payment immediately on the spot, I was short 54.00 and they've already called twice. I will have to borrow the rest from my brother. I have 3.00 in my checking acct. now. It gets hard not to feel defeated when I try so hard. I'm grateful the diagnosis wasn't worse. She did seem to sleep well last night, I was able to get one pill in her before bedtime. Deborah
  4. Update: She has torn the muscle surrounding her hip joint on one side and has a tiny fracture in her hip. Sent home w/meds and have to go back in 2 weeks. No running, jumping etc. The vet said these can heal but if she is not better in 2 weeks they want to do a more intensive xray, putting her to sleep with dye and stuff. I so so tired, worried myself sick over this. She's asleep now. 300.00 dollars later. Thankful its no worse. It just doesn't leave me much to go on. Thanks everyone for their prayers, it means so much. Heading upstairs to rest, Deborah
  5. Appt at 2:30 est. Kay she's getting alittle older and doesn't have a thick coat, she actually shivers, lol. God bless her.
  6. Thanks Anne, I'm so tired I just couldn't find how to attach but I did it. Will let you guys know tomorrow, hope I can sleep.
  7. I can't remember how to insert a picture, someone plz tell me and I'll post Maggie.
  8. Coming to my family here, need some prayers and positive energy sent my way for my dog Maggie. She slipped a few days ago, we have a huge kitchen area that is ceramic tile. She went spread eagle with her back legs. She has tall very skinny legs and she went down. She's limping, will put the leg down but hobbling to go outside to the bathroom. She can sit down to do her business, isn't crying out but it hasn't improved. I've held off because of the cost of another vet bill. I made an appt. tomorrow (friday) for her. Please send prayers that it's just a pulled muscle. She's the sweetest girl, my companion. I would do anything for her but if you don't have enough money to live, it makes life hard knowing I will have to pay this bill. Maggie is a long legged foxhound, looks like a tri color beagle but tall and long. Larry and I adopted her when she was 8 weeks old from the spca. All of this stress, along with some family issues, has caused my balance to go off again and Christmas I could barely walk. Prayers please my friends. Love you all!! Deborah
  9. OMG KAY, can you hear my yelling????? I'm glad you felt like doing that but seriously...... give yourself a chance to recover. We LOVE you!! please for us... take it easy. Deb
  10. I'm very proud of you and glad that you are home. Yes, I wish George was there too! My Maggie has those conversations and she talks back at me like a teenager when I tell her no, lol. Sending lots of love to you and a speedy recovery, Deb
  11. Love this picture Kay, such a happy time with George. Such cherished memories we have! On a funny note, Larry always dressed accordingly.... Red sweater and green turtleneck and Christmas socks!! makes me laugh now, my family is so stoic they didn't know what to think of it. I LOVED every minute of it!!!
  12. Kay, boy do I get that, people that haven't been in our shoes, if I'm sick no one is coming knocking on my door to help. Last year when I had the flu and barely any groceries, I remembered a small asian place that delivered, I ordered several bowls of the chicken and rice soup and lived off it for days. Its frightening to feel that sick and still have to walk the dog in the rain, while having the chills and fever. But I survived, wouldn't wish this on anyone. I am so praying for you and a rapid recovery. If you need to talk call me, love you, Deborah
  13. Kay so true, you on the west coast, me on the east coast, guess we could have a long distance relationship, lol.
  14. Oh Kay, sorry I didn't see this earlier. I'm so sorry to hear all that you are going thru. I hate to hear anyone in pain. Whats worse, being by yourself. I'll say a prayer for you my friend, we are all thinking of you! Love you, Deborah to everyone, I'm sorry I'm not on here as often anymore. I'm struggling to make ends meet and either I"m working or painting my items trying to sell them to keep roof over my head. At night, I just collapse into bed so utterly tired and feel sick most of the time. thinking of you all, miss the conversations here but can't keep up with everything right now. Love to you all, Deborah
  15. it takes me back to several moments in Larry's illness, when you second guess yourself, did I prolong his suffering, I pray not.
  16. I had no idea that you were going thru this, I'm so sorry. Do you know what is causing the pain? where is the pain? I hope you will know something soon. I will be watching this thread. Love you, Deborah
  17. yes Kay, we've been together since the beginning. My hospice counselor said to me once, that seeing her birthday and date of passing like that meant he had come full circle, whatever that means. Maybe Marty knows. Life goes on but will never be remotely like it was, the heartbreak just can't heal. Deborah
  18. So hard to believe, 9 long years, yet feels like yesterday, that my Larry died. I've been part of this group so long, you've listened to me scream and cry with disbelief. You've heard my anger that went to depression. I'm still struggling, the longing and sorrow are a part of me. Thinking of a wonderful guy who was so brave and fought to the end at 49, tomorrow is his birthday. I hope he knew how much he was loved. Missing him always, Deborah
  19. I'm so sorry for the loss of your husband. This site for almost 9 years has been my saving grace. The support and letting me vent (which was pretty ugly) was my only place to go. Family and friends could not cope with seeing me in my grief much less understand what it feels like. I'm so glad you found this site, it will provide you comfort over the coming months and years. Deborah
  20. Like Kay, its 9 years this month, I WISH all the time, every holiday, every special event. My oldest son just got married, I look at the pictures and think how much he would love the girl that he married. The change of seasons makes me think of him when I look at the trees, walk the dog. Missing and wishing will never stop, Deborah
  21. I'm so sorry for the loss of your beloved husband, he looks like a gentle soul. It is a grief unlike no other when you lose your spouse or partner. Your daily living and routine gets turned upside down. I lost my Larry coming on 9 years this month, at the age of 49, the day before his birthday. I have struggled tremendously. I've not done a very good job with the grieving. I was so angry at the doctors and that I had finally found the "one" I was to spend my life with. You have to take it day by day. If I was to give you one piece of advice, it would be to take care of yourself. Resting, eating even when you don't feel like it, try hard not to push yourself to much right now. I wore myself down physically and it made it all worse. You will find friends here who understand. Deborah
  22. No doubt Marty, Larry was watching out for them! She was a beautiful bride, love her, she's a wonderful person. They are very happy, two peas in a pod! Very proud of my son!
  23. Wanted to share with my friends and grief family here a happy occasion! Today was my oldest son's wedding. Rain was predicted but the sun and blue skies prevailed! While this is a very happy time, it does still bring some sadness, wishing Larry was here with us today. So introducing my son Ryan and his new bride Celeste!!!
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