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Nat Thank you for sharing. I too have a recent loss and at first mornings were my best time of the day. But now I dread getting out of bed each morning to face the day. Yet I do it - I get out of bed and take care of business for that day and then the next. Greg has been gone about a month and I feel worst today then I did 4 weeks ago. I heard that it is best to feel the pain and grieve rather than hold it all in. I hope you have a good support network of friends and family that allow you to talk about your feelings and share wonderful storie of your wife's life. Be gentle with your self. Cathy

Thank you for sharing. I too didn't get to say good bye to Greg. He died suddenly without warning and I so wish I could have felt his hug and shared a kiss one last time before he died. The night before he died I was heading to Florida to visit family. I couldn't get a cell phone signal and for some reason I started to panic and felt a ovewhelming need to speak with him before getting on the airplane. I walked all the way to the end of the terminal until I finally had a signal and we spoke. At this point I can't even recall our conversation, I just remember feeling an overwhelming sense of relief and was able to calm down and get on the airplane. I got the call that he had died while shopping with family members in Target. I just remember saying that it couldn't be true. Then I just wanted to get a plane out so I could be with him again so he didn't have to be alone in some cold place. He died about a month ago and at times it still doesn't feel real and then it feels so real and painful that it makes me physically sick. At times at work I just want to get in car and go home and get in bed and pull the covers over my head and make it all go away. Cathy

Hello I lost of partner 3 weeks ago. Greg died suddenly without warning of a massive heart attack on a Sat morning home alone with the dog while the rest of us were out doing our Sat morning activities. Greg and I had a second chance at love and he was my best friend and soul mate. We shared our lives with our blended family of three beautiful children. We had plans, visiting college with the oldest, going to Greece in April to celebrate my 50. Then in a second the world as I knew it changed. He was gone and now how do I live a life without him. I am back at work but just going thru the motions, not really feeling like myself. I am filled with dread, sadness, a empty feeling, and pain that makes my whole body ache. I don't know where to start.