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Hi My husband passed on April 6th, and I feel his presence with me all the time, I didn't in the beginning, then I dreamt of him and we were just holding and hugging each other in bed and i woke up it was so real that was a couple of weeks after he passed, and I kept asking him to give me a sign and he did, he gave me a sign and my two sons, just so we wouldn't mistake it for a coincidence, We each woke up at 4;45, the time that he passed, my son told me that he woke up that time two nights in a row , then I woke up that time the night he told me about it , and I told my other son and he woke up that time, no coincidence, and he is the skeptic. and every time I ask him to help me do something, I can. and I just feel him in the house, It feels like he is here but I just can't see him, I feel his presence here and with me when I go anywhere. I dream of him a lot, and that is one of the ways that they can communicate with you. You have to be open to it and you have to ask them to give you a sign or come to you in your dreams, and ask them to stay with you, I did, I asked him to stay with me until it was my time and then we will go where we have to go together, so I know that he is here, no question. God Bless, Karen

Hi Redwind, I had a horrible weekend also, first the other morning I woke up felt the bed and said to myself oh johnny must have left for work already, I just had 2 bad weeks,this weekend was very stressful for me, I had to go somewhere and had to take the bus with my friend because I am afraid to go with the car to this place, wanted to kick myself for that, then to get to my doctor visit without driving is 3 buses, and my 13 1/2 year old dog started peeing all over the kitchen, i try to keep her confined, I will have to take her to the vet now, I have so much going on in my head it is overwhelming me. Then I lent my son some money about 5 months ago, he needed it to get a house, and he promised to give it back to me as soon as he signed all the papers, and he hasen't and he said he will have to give it to me in dribs and drabs which I don't want, I need the money, I can't believe he is doing this to me, and that I have to ask him for it again. To much stress, I am so mad at Johnny for leaving me, I know it wasn't his choice, but I am still mad at him for leaving., I feel like my mind is going 100 miles and hour. Take care hugs Karen

Hi Suzanne, I haven't been posting for a while, but I do check out the posts, I lost my husband April 6 2010, from pancreatic cancer suddenly in 3 weeks, we were married 43 years, I couldn't stand it or believe what happened, I also went to a famous medium, I brought along my 2 sons, one is a n y c detective and the other a gov't cop, so you will figure out how skeptical they were about it, but they went along with the idea to make me happy, Well let me tell you, he told us things that were impossible for him to know, I also left there with a peace in my heart, knowing for sure that he was in a safe place, and real close to me, my sons also left there not skeptical anymore, they also couldn't believe the things he was saying, It was the best thing that I did, I was so happy, I also have the meeting audio cd, so I can listen to it anytime I want, my husband comes to me in dreams all the time, and always giving me signs, that could only be from him, he is always with me, I feel his presence always, so no I don't think you are crazy. Take care god bless karen

Hi Dar, I am so sorry for your loss, I also lost my husband April 6,this year, we are all here for you, say whatever you need to Hugs Karen

Hi Haven't been posting for a while, but I also dream a lot of my husband, and I always feel so good when I do, it is like he is right there with me again, everyone is right enjoy your dreams, you are not crazy, he is with you and that is how I believe they can communicate with us is through dreams. So sorry for all the new people that I see, sorry you had to join this sad club, but this site will help you take care karen

Hi Melina, I feel your pain, I was with my husband for 44 years, and we were only 60 when he passed suddenly and unexpected for what else cancer, I also don't know any other life except being with him and don't want to, this is so unfair, and we are left here to deal with it, my grand children were lucky enough to get to know him, but I wonder if they will really remember him, they are between 7 and 11 years old, kind of young, I hope that they remember something of him, he loved them so much. I also don't know how I am living without him, I seem to be existing from one day to the next, and before I know it another week has passed. I am seeing a counselor one on one, and I think she is helping guide me a little. It is just a painful journey, Take care of yourself Karen

Hi Lily, I also lost my husband to pancreatic cancer, he was fine and in 6 weeks that horrible disease took him down, all so fast and so unexpected, I also can't think of the last 24 hours of his life, it was a horror. Karen

Hi Cheryl you said it all, it is so true, people just don't know karen

such a wonderful memory, karen

Hi Cheryl, What a perfect song, I love it, i am going to put it on my ipod, just perfect, karen

Hi I dream of Johnny a lot and love it, i will take whatever time I can with him, it makes me happy to see him, always happy and smiling and so real, can't wait to see him again karen

Hi Marion I am so sorry for your loss, I also lost my husband in April, I was never alone, we got married when I was 17, went from my mom's house to married, and we were always together, never ever apart except when I had our kids, for 44 years, and I depended on him more that I should of, and then he was gone, it is so very hard, my kids are married with their own families, and live about an hour from me, I am not a driver, although I have started again, he did all the driving, so life has changed completely for me, eating alone which i never did, sleeping alone, just everything, it is something I never ever even thought would happen, you just dont think of these things. I miss him every second of every day, the only ones here when I come home are my dogs, thank god for them at least there is something alive in the house and someone there to greet me. Take care karen

Hi I know what you are talking about, I also had the tightness in the chest and throat, went to the doctor to check it out, had it day and night, when my husband passed April 6, the doctor took some tests, and determined it was stress and anxiety, it stood like that for a few months some days worse than others, but the past month it seems to be getting better, I don;t have it all the time, maybe your doctor can give you something for it, Mine did, and it really didn't help me much, but there are meds out there that will help. take care of yourself Karen

Hi Faith, I am so sorry for all you have been through, I know the feeling of trying to keep busy and saying why, who cares, but it is something that will keep us going, I am sorry that your family is moving, that is another loss and you have a right to feel the way you do, I hope that you find some peace, god bless karen

Hi Lizz, I am so very sorry for you loss, it is so shocking, so fast, I lost my husband april 6, not as sudden as you did, but in 3 weeks from diagnosis to gone. You will probably be in a fog for a while, which is not a bad thing it protects you, I was like that for a while, life is so sad, all i said and still do sometimes is why???, there is no answer and no one can give me one. When you love someone and are with them a long time, we never ever think about it but eventually one is going to go first, I wished it was me, but we don't have a say in the matter, This is a hard journey the only thing I can say is try to keep busy, don't stay by yourself for long periods of time, and there will be a lot of up and down emotions, that is part of the grief, and come here anytime, you want to vent or talk about something, this place is really helpful. god bless Hugs Karen