It's been ten months since I lost my husband, Kelly, to brain cancer. He had been feeling tired and we figured it was just stress from work, then he couldn't remember things. This all happen in a matter of 3 mos. He went though surgery,radiation and chemo. We prayed and hoped he would get better. His spirit and wonderful sense of humor helped him fight this terrible disease. He tried so hard. He was my best friend. We did everything together. We was teased about how we were always together. Like other people have said, you feel numb, you are like in a fog. I don't know if reality has set in, but lately it seems like the sadness I feel is worse. Maybe, because it will be a year and it seems like yesterday. If it wasn't for my kids and pets, I would probably just stay in bed. I try to keep busy, but I'm having a hard time staying motived. I'm letting things go and I tend to forget to pick up things. I know I need to get it together. I have two beautiful children, that also miss their father. I know it will get better, but it is so hard. I planned on growing old with this man and it's like what happen! I'm trying to take each day as they go and there are good days. I do laugh with family and friends, but like so many of you have stated, so many things remind you of that person and then the sadness washes over you. I have his family here, but they're all dealing with their grief in their own way. We talk about Kelly, but everyone keeps their emotions in check. I know I'm not alone. That there are many others that are feeling this way and that it will get better for all of us. Kelly believed when it was your time, it was your time. It didn't make it any easier to let him go, but I know someday we'll be together again.
