Sissy'sMom

I can really relate to what Jenn said here in that She was surprised at her outpouring of grief. On this same day of her post I lost my dearest friend in the world, my cat Sissy, in the early hours of the morning and that is what brought me here to this forum. I am really, really sorry Jenn--and I think that, though we have many pets in our lives, some of them just 'get to us' more than others. Sissy was just like a sister to me. She knew me and could read my moods, she knew when I was troubled, she knew how to get me out of my sadness....and the love we had was very, very tender. She was so beautiful. I thought that she would live a long life as many of my cats have. I was astonished when she died suddenly at only thirteen years of age. I didn't even know that she was sick. She showed no signs and the vet found no concerns in the last year. Sometimes animals just like people have complications out of nowhere. And I am stunned...and when she died, like Jenn, I cried a primal wailing cry holding her in my arms and rocking back and forth with her and calling out her name and calling out to God. She was so still..and still beautiful in her stillness...and I knew that she was not there any more....and I cried like a child. It was pouring raind outside and had not stopped for days. It let up a moment about dawn, and I went out and made her a grave and burried her there. I wrapped her in a beautiful scarf my parnter gave her and put a beautiful Italian cut glass cross about her neck, and I tucked my favourite earings in the grave next to her because they were her favourite too. She liked to bat at them when sitting on my chest and I never want to wear them again without her. I am wearing her tag on a chain next to my heart. I cannot stop looking for her. I think she will come out of one of her hiding places at any moment---and it is so strange, and I remember that she will not come again. I cannot get my head around this...and I don't know if I ever will. Thank you Jenn for your post, and for letting me share also.