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Thank you, everyone. I did not think the emptiness would ever go away but I was hoping. I just have to figure out how to deal with it. So far, distractions do not seem to work. I keep expecting to see mom on the couch and I often turn around to make a comment about a TV show or something else or I start to call her from the kitchen but she is not there. I'm having trouble getting myself to clean out her room. It feels like I'm throwing her out. We lived together. As old as I am, I still have to work (I work from home), which gave me less time with mom than I wanted to have. Now, I have more time but I do not have the person I needed the time for. It's like some horrible irony or Shakespearean tragedy. thank you again for your responses

On the 14th, it will be 10 months since I lost my mom. Does the nagging emptiness ever go away?

Hi Kansas. I do not think this pain is ever going to go away. I lost my mom April 14. I can empathize with you about brothers. One of mine is right here in town and the other is on the west coast. We had a memorial service here but then, I had to take mom's ashes up in NY. Neither of them went. I did it on my own but, thankfully, we have close family members up there who were with me. I got brothers together a few days after the service here in Fl to go through mom's things. They did part of it and left. I'm left with the rest and so far, I just cannot do it. I hope the grief counselor helps. Some of them are very good. Others aren't. The one I tried wasn't. My dr. put me on a lot of drugs this morning. I hope they help me sleep. BTW, my mom was 92. If one more person tells me what a wonderful and long life she had, I will scream or throw up. hugs ....