megan

Thank you

Thank you so much for your response, that gives me great hope that I will find some light at the end of my journey. I am not to sure if I will be able to turn my family for any help in the family because no one seems to understand me. They think that I am jus this anger person that hates everyone. I no longer speak to my mother or stepfather, we cant come to terms with each other. The only person that I feel that I can turn to is my sister but, she can only tell me so much because she was 7 when he passed. So she has told me stories what her and my dad use to do together and would show me pictures of him and that made me feel good but its like I have a emptiness inside of me still...Can you tell me what self help books you have been reading that has helped you out? Thank you again, Megan

I am 24 years old and i lost my father when i was 3 years old. I have a lot of hatered built up towards my mother and stepfather and i want to no how to get rid of it or will it never go away. The reason why i think i have all this bult up is becuase just after 3 years of my father passing i was forced to call another man dad and never had any closer on my fathers death. when i go to ask my mom questions about him all she wants to do is tell me about all the wrong that my father did and then wont say no more i dont speak dont to my father side of the family and my stepfather was always mean to me and would speak bad about my father...is there any help that i can get or how do i deal with this. i feel that my mom is not a mom and that she is just a nobody. could that be because of my dads death or something more? I have a older sister and she doesnt have the same feelings i do, could that be because she was older when my father passed and got to no him? I am confused and just looking for closer. I dont no what i am looking for.