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urbabygirl79, I am sooooo very sorRy for your loss. I cannot imagine how you are feeling. I do not know if you are a relgious person But I do truely believe that God has a plan for everyone and at times it feels like we just cannot go on but somehow we do. I lost my dad on may 2nd and feel absolutely devastated. I lost my fatherinlaw 28 years ago to suicide and my only brother 3 years ago to suicide and thought nothing could ever hurt so bad... till I lost dad. But I talk to dad every day and feel him in my life on a daily basis. Just in a different way. I know these words do not take your pain away and you will be in my prayerS.`

It is nice to know other people do feel the same way! I guess I amn not just being selfish. Just seems so hard sometimes. I miss dad so much as I am sure you guys miss your moms and dads. I know they are in a wonderful place but we are selfish in nature and just want our people here with us. I just feel like even though we had two horrible weeks of saying our good byes I feel like sometimes screaming " but IAM NOT DONE SAYING GOOD BYE." but i guess i never will be. thank you all for listening.

sometime I wonder. It seems like some members of the family seem to think that they are the only ones that have suffered a loss. I lost my dad! Along with my husband he was the most important male in my life.One of the people I new always loved me know matter what. I miss him so much and sometimes it feels like people think only mom has lost someone. I know she lost her best friend and I try so hard to help but sometimes it is nice for a person to know that I lost a very good friend that day we lost dad too. maybe I am just feeling sorry for myself. I know my girls are all deeply affected by losing their grandpa and I try to be there for them. I keep in touch with three of my four sisters almost everyday to let them know I care and I love them. I think my girls know that i do realize their great loss but I think I will remind them all again. well sorry for my pity party guys. Wishing everyone a good day and your all in my prayers.

i agree. I did share that story with my mom. Yesterday I went up and spent the day and evening with her and it seems we talk about dad alot. Untill I get weepy. It seems in my family you do not cry in front of people and I have always been a very soft emotional person. I miss my dad soooo much. On wednesday we are having a family memorial for dad's 80th birthday and are going to release balloons. Red of course. His favorite color.I thought of that a couple of monthes ago and asked mom what she thought of the idea and she also liked it. and not it sounds like our whole family except one sister can be there to remember dad on his 80th birthday. And one sister that I have not seen since dad passed on is even going to come. (even though I will be there)!She has not said a word to me in over a year. For a while I felt like I was also grieving for a big sister but then realized that if she choses not to have me or my family in her life any longer I guess there is nothing I can do about that. It is really sad. Even when I asked her if she could at least act civil around mom for mom and dads sake she will not come around if I am there. Oh well. Sorry for rambleing on just one of those days that a person spends feeling sorry for themselves and needs to remember how healthy and happy their loved one is now.

hello everyone< I found a couple of poems I wanted to share. Those we love don't go away They walk beside us everyday. Unseen, unheard, but always there, Still loved, still missed and very dear. Poem of Life Life is but a stopping place, aA pause in what's to be, A resting place along the road, to sweet eternity, We all have different journeys, Different pathes along the way, We all were meant to learn some things, but never meant to stay.... Our destination is a place, far greater than we know, For some the journey's quicker, For some the journey's slow, And when the journey finaly ends, We'll claim a great reward, And find an everlasting peace. Together with the Lord.

I am so very sorry for your loss. I know how special a relationship with a grandmother can be. I have three daughters and all of them are so very close to my mother and were very close to my father as well. It is so hard to lose someone who means so much to us. Do you have any children? I have three daughters and they and my mom and one of the four sisters are my life along wit

Hello all, Well yesterday was a very weepy day for me. there are so very many triggers to remind me just how much I miss my Dad. My husband and I took some remodeling garbage to the dump, and of all places I was in tears in minutes. When I was a little girl dad would go to the city dump with a load of junk so many saturdays and I always went with him. Then throughout the day I realized how many [ages of the book of my life have dad in them. There is such a empty place in my life that only dad can fill. I remind myself he IS here and start talking to him the the tears start to subside. Just some days miss him so much it really hurts. mom is being soooo brave and strong. for all of us am sure. we all hide true feelings cause no one wants to make the othere one sad or start a bad day for someone else who may be having a ok day. I always knew when I lost a parent it would devastate me but it is even worse than I ever could have imagined.

I know what you mean. I lost my dad four monthes ago in a couple of days. and nothing feels right. I have a huge lump in my throat unless I am around my mom or my daughters and grandkids.(then i think I just feel I have to hide it for thier sake). The only place that feels ok anymore is at mom and dad's house. I feel close to dad there.

My Dad's birthday is coming on September 15th. and my mom's is the 21st. We have always celebrated them together so this one will be hard, I would like to get 80 red helium balloons(red is his favorite color) and get as much family together as possible together and let them all fly to the heavens. Would love that.when I was a kid he always built and flew remote control airplanes and I was his (little helper) and would spot for him so when it went down we would not lose the plane. I am sorry if I am rambleing but am new at this and am usually crying while I write.

I KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN. My dads been gone for 15 wks now and I miss him so terribly bad. yesterday was my birthday and I had such a lump in my throat I felt I could barely breath. I try so hard to spend time with mom because I know she needs it and I do too. I feel the best when I am at mom and dads house. I still cry everyday and feel as though I always will. How can my life ever be ok without dad. when mom would give us a gift from them dad would say "what did I give you?" and then " oh thats nice"although last year for my birthday he actually picked out a beautiful framed prayer for me. Maybe he knew it would be the last. he had been diagnosed only about a month before that. there are just so many reminders of him every where i look i know he is with me in a different way but i miss the physical pressence of him. I feel like yelling" wait I guess Iam not done saying goodbye.

I am so sorry for your loss. My dad passed away 15 wks ago today. And like you said it has been the most devastating journey of my life. I miss dad daily and cry daily. I still just cannot believe he got that sick and we lost him. I try to forget the horrible parts and try to help mom in everyway I possibly can. I cannot imagine how hard it must be for her if it hurts this bad for me. God bless you and be with you.