Dear Friend, Thank you all for caring words. I loss Paul on April 5, 2010. He was 49 on Jan 6 and I'm was 55 in May. we have 3 grown children and 5 wonderful grandkids. Paul was and still is a loving husband, father and papa. He left our home at 3:30 am to on a fishing trip with our son Jason and a family friend. we talk to each other before he left and he kiss me goodbye he went out to get some last minutes thing done, but he came back into our bedroom and told me he needed another kiss and we told each other that we love you, He left and a short time later I heard someone outside. so I called him to see why he came back home. He forgot some fishing stuff and he didn't want to wake me so he didn't come into the house. again we told each other I love you, have a good day and see you later. that was the last time that I talked to him. I was waiting to call him to see how the fishing was going ( I alway waited until 10:00 am to call) But now I wish I wouldn't waiting. because Jason called me at 9:53 and told me Paul was gone. Heart attach. I can't on any more for now. I'm feeling to much pain in writing all of this. But again Thank you all, Darlene