I think this is probably quite common with someone who's experiencing grief. Too lash out I mean. I lost my "significant other" 12 weeks ago. We'd been best friends for 13 years and together for 9. He had gone through a bad divorce at the same time he had lost his Dad and never got over it. He also had addiction issues, especially with alcohol. We definitely had our problems but I loved him and he loved me. His mother passed 2 years ago and for some reason, this last year was especially hard. When he felt bad, he lashed, in words, extremely. He threw tantrums and said things just to say them. He often stated he wanted us "to break up" but he never really meant it, this was just his own insecurities. His sister who is almost 15 years older and lived in a different state always acted like "his mother" even though she was never part of his life and judged him for his lifestyle and felt she knew him and us. She didn't. In thirteen years, they had very little activity and knew each other mostly through phone calls. She moved away 5 years ago to a different state. She also judged me, especially since his outlashes were always about me, but that was just because I was the only one there in his life and the one he could lash out on and to. It was just his process, and yes we both knew it was immature, but we were open about it and worked on it. He new how to push my buttons and I would not always be mature either, we're human with human errors. Accept his sister demands perfections and holds "human fault" as either disgusting or unworthy. She turns her back often even on family. But he knew this about her too. It never really bothered him, he accepted this in her as her "human fault" and he was dedicated to family and loved her. Unfortunately, since he passed so close to his mother's passing and he was a bit of a procrastinator, he died without a will and she has come into town with full control. Control being her best attribute. Sorry for the long story but I felt a bit of background to help relate it to this post. The point being...she too is grieving, even though she doesn't like me or get along with me. She's "judging" my relationship with her brother as one sided because he would often bitch and complain about us, and two days ago she emailed me a hateful letter that came right out and stated that I killed him, was a "cancer to his soul," that he hated me, etc. We're not a part of each other's lives so I just wrote her back a letter wishing her a better understanding of addiction and peace. It hurts like hell that she hates me so much and places so much on me. But I just try to remember that she's grieving, too. And since we're not really part of each other's lives, I just have to learn to let it go. Granted it's not discrimination like you experienced, but I think that might just be a separate issue. Also, it doesn't help with finding a place with a group, I just hope that my story can help you not feel so alone and find you can find some peace and solitude that others are grieving too. Which I guess is the whole point of all of us being here. In support of us not being alone, really her insensitive and inappropriate comment just shows that we all are grieving and we are NOT alone. Also, I find I get very little understanding in general, because we were NOT married. On a separate note, if you don't like how the law will handle your estate after you're gone, make sure you leave a will. God bless to you. I hope you find what you need and peace.