I understand your pain. I lost my dad very suddenly about a month ago. We were very close. He was 63, too young. I'm 30. It makes me so sad, all of the things I took for granted. Some days I think I'm in denial - I keep expecting him to be at his computer when I come home. It's like there is this huge gaping hole in my heart, and when I let the reality of the situation sink in, it is so unbearable. I feel urges to do horrible things. I have to fight the urge to scream. Running helps. Need a punching bag. I am so thankful for my mum, and for one close friend that is always here when I need her. All of my other friends have stopped calling. It's like the world expects you to act like nothing's changed, when the whole world has spun out of orbit. Dad was always there for me. Always. I turned to him for advice and support, and he always gave it, and in such a loving way. How can you continue on, knowing that is gone? Just *poof* gone! In an instant. It's so final. I keep feeling like if I did this or did that, he might come back. But I know he isn't coming back.
I am so sorry for your loss Hello123. A wonderful dad is impossible to replace. I'm here if you need to talk. <3