I lost my grandmother on August 21, 2009. It was the first person I had ever lost. She was my entire world. I had my crying and I had my pain. But it seemed too easy to move on. Like there was supposed to be more to it than what I had felt. Then about a month ago, I started feeling severely out of it. My lump of feelings turned out to be depersonalization. It was the scariest thing I had ever felt. It felt as though I wasn’t real. I stopped going to school and fell in a depression quickly. I stayed on the couch, and felt incredibly sick. My mom found this website. She said she wanted me to have an outlet and told me that it was a place I could talk about things like this. I asked her what she meant and she said she thinks this is my body’s way of grieving.
Is this too long after her passing to count as grieving?