The guilt feelings lifted one day when I began to remember Dad the way he was before he got sick. Dad had so many wonderful years, and he lived life to its fullest up to the bitter end. When I focused on memories of Dad as he used to be, I felt better. The guilt did come crashing back down on me again, and it's still here now, but I'm glad it lifted for a while. What did I do "wrong" in the first place? Calling in Hospice before I knew, beyond a doubt, that Dad could not be helped by further treatment. Dad's doctor wanted me to call Hospice, and I did so somewhat reluctantly. My daughter says I have nothing to feel guilty about because Dad was sick, was not going to get better, would only have suffered longer, and things could have gotten worse if I had sought further treatment. She's convinced we did the right thing, that Dad did indeed have Parkinson's and it was incurable and progressive. I hope in time that I can make peace with my decisions, I don't feel any peace yet. I'm just glad the guilt can at times lift a bit. Does anybody know of any books or other sources for dealing with the guilt over "end of life" decisions? So many of us are faced with this, I can't be the only one struggling with remorse. Anything specific to Parkinson's disease deaths? It would be nice to be in contact with someone whose parent died from Parkinson's because it is quite different from terminal cancer or other diseases. You don't actually die from Parkinson's, you die from infections your body can't fight anymore, or starvation because you can't swallow. I think dad's doctor at the end just decided to stop treating his infections and let Dad go. Maybe if the infections had been treated, Dad would have starved because swallowing had become more difficult for him. It's just so hard because I don't know the answers. Anyway, whoever reads this, thanks for listening. And I would really like to know where to go to find others who have experienced a Parkinson's related death.