I know how you feel even though i had to put my cat to sleep its ome thing i wont do again as iam NOT having any more pets this is killing me inside ...iam going to pick one of my cats best photos and have it blown to poster size and put on an wall so when i come home after an long or bad day to see her when i open my door with those big gold eyes of hers with lift me i know..no other cat will take her place no way!!! i was blessed to have had her in my life and hope one day i will see her again..