On Thanksgiving day November 25, 2010 I lost my only child Jessi 14 from effects of chemotherapy after being treated for 5 months for AML (acute mylogenous leukemia). Jessi just turned 14 in October. She was diagnosed June 26 after returning home from a vacation with a very close family. In one day our life changed. Jessi endured 5 months of treatment and long hospital stays because AML treatment is very harsh. Jessi, me and her dad were all so very close. We did everything together. Now.....we are lost. Devastated. I really can't find the exact words to describe what this is like. The thought of forever is excruciating. There are days that feel like we won't make it. How do people do this? How do you go on when your future is gone. We did'nt just lose a daughter, we lost a son-in-law, grandchildren.......where is one to go from here. I feel as though life is hell now just without the heat. It's simply uncomprehendable. Any one with words of advice are welcome.....this will be my first mothers day without her.....im simply dreading that day which is in one week.
