April 30, a few weeks before my 17 birthday, my baby sister was born. Three years later, she passed away without warning due to doctor error.
Now, six years later, my husband and I are discussing starting a family of our own. I am still working through grief issues. Something that has recently popped up is my intense fear of having a baby girl. I feel as if I am putting off children of my own to avoid dealing with issues related to my sisters death. I am concerned about putting all of my feelings and expectations related to my sister onto my hypothetical daughter.
Has anyone else dealt with this?
